Zoom!

and i'm back. I told you guys i was gonna restart this blog, and I promise I didn't lie.

So there is a region dance tonight. Everyone should go. Here's my theory:
Everyone used to go to dances, right? Then some kids stopped going, so they got less fun. So less people kept going. So then they got less fun. So less people went. Get my point? If everyone went, everyone would have fun! Then more people would come! See, its all a wonderful idea. But everyone is lame. So i think you should all come, okay? And maybe ask me to dance, because I never get asked to dance. But I still go! So you should too.

So elections were last week. I told myself I would never, ever fun for president. So guess what I ran for. That's right...Junior President. I really don't know why. I signed up to run for senate. But everyone kept telling me to run for president because they all thought I'd do a better job than Sehe. So I did. And I won. I'm not sure why, but I won. And Briahna is Vice. I'm glad we both won... If just one of us did, it wouldn't be the same. But now I can't take athletics or Social Dance. Which blows. I might just do early morning seminary so I can. I really wasn't planning on winning. I mean, i'm Marissa Weeks. I'm not popular. I'm a loser. So i don't really get it. But somehow, I won. So i'm in charge of making next year amazing for you all. I hope I can. Let me know if there's anything you want done, for shizzle.

Life is tough. Friends are tough. Everything has gotten confusing. I used to be SUCH a loser. Then I get to be good friends with some people. It was great. Then I started meeting more people. A lot of people. Now it seems like I'm not good friends with anyone. I'm not in any group. I'm just there. I know everyone, but i'm never considered a good friend. I've never really had a best friends, except Robert. I'm just there.

I'm not pretty, but i'm not ugly. I'm not fat, but i'm not skinny. I'm not smart, but i'm not stupid. I'm not slow, but I'm not fast. I'm not short, but I'm not tall. I don't dress well, but I don't dress badly. I'm not popular, but I'm not a total loser. I'm not talented, but I don't suck at everything. I'm never the best friend, but i'm rarely the enemy. I'm always "just the friend." I'm just there. I'm just me. It seems like there's never anything special about me. It seems like I just can't fit in anywhere. I don't fit in with the music nerds. I don't fit in with the regular nerds. I don't fit in with the drama kids. I don't fit in with the cheerleaders. I don't fit in with the jocks. I don't fit in anywhere.

does everyone else feel like that all the time? Or is it just me? Because i sure do. When someone asks me who my close friends are, I can only name a few, and they probably wouldn't name me if they were asked the same question. I don't care what people think about me, but I don't KNOW what people think about me. I just don't get it. I don't get ME.

okay, we're gonna do something. It probably won't work because no one reads this...but we'll try. Thatcher did this once, and it seemed like a success.
Ask me anything. Absolutely anything. You can ask me anything personal, you can ask my opinion on anything, you can even ask me for math help. hahahaha. I dunno how much i could help with that last one though. But seriously, ask me anything.

okayreadygo!

The Ins and outs

edit: Nick is an exception too. He's smart and good at music.

Why is it that I can Ace honors physics, but i'm currently failing computer tech? Why do I not even have to try in English, but I have to FIGHT for an A if freaking student government?! I really don't understand. but here is my theory.

Its all the stupid kids in those classes. Being surrounded by mediocrity just ruins things. In my hard classes, the teachers know you want to be there. In computer tech, the teacher knows that the majority of the kids could care less if they get an A. Its the same in every health class, driver's ed, all those artsy classes, etc. you get my point. In GT last year, everyone always got A's. Even though we had harder work. Why is that? It because we care. Its because the teachers know we care. Its quite ridiculous, if you ask me.

So currently, i'm trying to catch up in computer tech. Why am I behind? Several reasons. First, I got behind because I just got lazy. I already know all of this stuff. I haven't learned a single thing this year. Then, I got behind during tour. THEN I lost my notebook. And I sit by Taylor Lajeunesse. Who can pay attention when he's around? That's right, no one. So now, I have 48% in that class. Like really. But it shall be up soon. But if this ruins my GPA, i'll cry. Not because my hard work goes down the drain, but because its FREAKING COMPUTER TECH!

so. On to other news. I definitely didn't go to the track meet. Molen already doesn't like me. So that might make getting an A hard too. haha. It would probably be easier if he didn't even know who I was. But yeah, I didn't go. On Wednesday, I had a symphony concert, and I'm mucho better at the violin than at running...currently. haha. That was fun. I've now successfully completed a full 4 years of Granite Youth Symphony. There are only like, 3 other kids in my grade that can say that. Because no one in our grade does anything!

And thats my next topic. Have you ever noticed how much our grade sucks? No one has school spirit. The majority of the kids are stupid(er) than the general populous. We don't have any super amazing athletes. We don't really have any amazing musicians. Yeah, there are exceptions...like Tyrel. and Thatcher is really smart. I mean, a 34?! But in general, our grade sucks. Like seriously. I mean, last year, i was good at everything! I was first chair violin in orchestra AND granite youth. I was jazz band pianist. I kicked butt in all my classes. I averaged out my percentages in my classes at the end of some of the terms, and it was around 106%. its crazy. But thats not cause I'm amazing. Its cause our grade sucks. Its not hard to excel. I was the best CC runner. I had ONE person to beat. I mean, honestly. I DO represent the sophomores at T-Ville, but I can still diss them. I haven't really liked a guy in our since since, oh, thatcher. And before that there wasn't really anyone either. Oh well, maybe our grade will shape up. Maybe all the boys will get cute. Maybe some people will actually get some school spirit. And maybe, just maybe, some people might get a little more mature and a lot less stupid.

I put this on myspace, but I feel like putting it on here too:
"One Flaw in Women"
By the time the Lord made woman,
He was into his sixth day of working overtime.
An angel appeared and said,
"Why are you spending so much time on this one?"
And the Lord answered,
"Have you seen my spec sheet on her?
She has to be completely washable, but not plastic,
Have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable
And able to run on diet coke and leftovers,
Have a lap that can hold four children at one time,
Have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped
Knee to a broken heart -and she will do everything
With only two hands."
The angel was astounded at the requirements.
"Only two hands!? No way!
And that's just on the standard model?
That's too much work for one day.
Wait until tomorrow to finish.
"But I won't," the Lord protested."I am so close to finishing this creation that is
So close to my own heart.
She already heals herself when she is sick
AND can work 18 hour days."
The angel moved closer and touched the woman.
"But you have made her so soft, Lord."
"She is soft," the Lord agreed,"But I have also made her tough.
You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."
"Will she be able to think?" asked the angel.
The Lord replied,"Not only will she be able to think,
She will be able to reason and negotiate.
"The angel then noticed something,And reaching out, touched the woman's cheek.
"Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model.
I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."
"That's not a leak," the Lord corrected, "That's a tear!"
"What's the tear for?" the angel asked.
The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy,
Her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her
Love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride."
The angel was impressed. "You are a genius, Lord.
You thought of everything! Woman is truly amazing."

And she is!Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness,
Love and joy. They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy
And laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice. They don't take "no" for an answer
When they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel, and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member,
Yet they are strong when they think there is no
Strength left. They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you
To show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love. They have compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.Women have vital things to say and everything to give.

HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH

I love this. I did not write it. But I love it. It makes me realize that even when I get really down, I still have worth. Simply because God made me. He put time into me. I have potential. Even if I don't like myself, I know that GOD put me here. For a reason. In seminary we had a lesson about the Savior. He died for ME. In John 15:13 it says:
Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.

that means that someone loves me. Even when i don't, someone does. Just think about that.

For "just in case"

I have a symphony concert tonight. If anyone actually reads this, and feels like coming...ya know.

Its at T-Ville at 7. Its going to be good, I promise. I'll give you a prize if you come. And Nick doesn't count.

Rebirth

ok, so i definitely haven't blogged in FOREVER. because no one read it. but it seems that the blogging comminity is blooming, so i thought I should re-join. Thanks Thatcher.

School. Is almost over! 18 days. Hip Hip Hooray! Thats nine more days of MJ. Forever! haha.

So in english we're doing this huge assignment, right? well i got it all done, on time and everything. I go to burn it onto a CD...and its gone. just gone. No where in sight. that's never happened to me. I've heard about it happening and i'm just like, duh! Look where you save it, you retard! Computer's don't eat things! But then it happened to me! I saved several times, and I know where i saved it. but it just wasnt there. So I redid it. the end.

Cheating. Is writing down the test questions in MJs really cheating? because i don't think it is. Sometimes we don't even have CLOSE to enough time to take the test, but he passes it out anyways, and tells us to get a good look at the questions so we know what to study. So I don't consider it cheating. Kyle, if you think i'm a terrible person for this, so be it.

Why is music so hard? Like really, the piano is a very simple instrument. You just play whats on the music. The notes don't change. The key I learned as Middle C will always be in the same place, with the same pitch. then why is it so hard? And same with the violin. There are only 4 strings. It shouldnt be that hard, but it really is. I ws thinking about it, and it really shouldnt be. Maybe I think about it too much. Maybe i make things harder than they really are. But it seems like every time i get something down, there is another thing to make it even harder. It just makes me really frustrated to know that I'll never master it. There is always something new to learn. I mean, thats nice in some ways, to always have a new challenge, but its so frustrating.


I think thats good enough of a start. I'll keep doing this regularly. And thatcher, myspace is not evil. Its annoying, and it wastes time, but its not evil.